Now that I'm at the tail end of it, October was a positive step forward in my personal development. At the beginning of the month I was still feeling a bit overwhelmed with the task of getting through Food and Theology, the small-group that I've been designing and leading in tandem. I've never lead a small-group before, let alone design the material for one, so it's been a challenge.
Something that this Job has brought up to the surface in me to deal with, is placing my identity in my reputation. What people think of me based on what I produce or don't produce. This has never been more highlighted than in my time working on Food and Theology. It was a really vulnerable spot to be in. I toiled from Thursday to Wednesday on the topic for the upcoming evening, immersing my self biblical commentaries, books, accordances, internet articles, and conversations with my pastors so I can have something that's biblically accurate, and something that I think will help people see the story of bible in a fresh way. looking back on the last 8 weeks, I can say that I'm proud of the work that I've done, but the evenings that went the best were the ones where I got out of God's way. The evenings where I put my reputation aside and just went in trusting god's story, and for himself to be revealed, even in my failings.
This has been the theme of October---> What areas of my life am I placing my identity in my reputation? Once Identified, How can I reorient my identity into Christ? It's a struggle, but a worthwhile struggle.
Things you can pray for:
Sleep: I've ben having a really hard time sleeping. I've always had difficulties falling asleep, but recently has been really discouraging. It takes me 3 or 4 hours +, sometimes even longer to fall asleep. It's affecting other areas of my life, So I would be really grateful for some prayer directed towards this.
Wisdom: Over the next few months I'm going to go over my Food and Theology material and try to improve it. This looks like navigating what worked and what didn't, and locating any blind spots I had. Along with that, I would like to create actual course materials, readings, note book etc... My hope is to create something that can carry on in The Table without me having to lead it every time.
Thank you all for your ongoing support of me and what I'm doing. I'm grateful to have all of you on my team. I could't do this without you.
All the best,